How did I
get here?
To a place
where
I have become
impatient,
& almost cold
towards
others?
While there
is no
excuse for
such
a thing,
I am able
to trace
the steps
that
brought
me here...
I feel as
though
I am
learning
how to
interact
with people
all over
again...
I am a
people
person,
I am
energized
by interacting
with people...
By nature,
I am
a very
compassionate
& loving person...
One who
loves to
listen
to what
others
have to
say...
However,
after Africa
was placed
on my
heart,
and I
became more
and more
involved
and
aware,
It became
difficult
to even
function
or interact
with
people
who couldn't
even
fathom
the things
I had come
to know
or those
that
could not
conceive of
a world
outside
their
own...
This
distanced
me from
people,
and
over time,
my patience
in dealing
with such
people
diminished...
I have
an impeccable
ability
to
discern
people's
character,
their hangups,
etc.
it is
both
a blessing
and
a curse...
Over time,
it has
caused
me
to completely
write people
off,
[subconsciously]
instead of
choosing
to invest
time
in them...
I talked
to my
mom
about
this,
and she
said,
"that is
also
common
when
you are
forced to
deal
with certain
kinds of
people"...
Thankfully,
a friend
of mine
had the
courage
to mention
this to
me,
and that
by God's
grace,
I was able
to hear
her
& be
receptive
to it
and see
the need
for
change.
I am
not that
person...
Everyone
is unique
& valuable;
everyone you
meet
has something
to teach you;
and everyone
needs
to feel
validated.
Christ knows
the
character
of every man
and yet
he loves
every man
unconditionally
&
equally...
How dare
I do
anything
less,
as I am
just as
flawed
as the
next person?
God,
forgive me
for
not loving
the way
I should.
Fill me
with
your love
until
I am
overflowing
with
kindness,
compassion,
patience,
forgiveness,
understanding,
peace,
and joy.
May they
know
you
through
your love
in me.
Amen.
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